Saturday the 14th

Wut do you do when you really want somene but you know you're better off not even trying?? And I don't mean you don't try because you think you'll be rejected, I mean you don't try because you just KNOW it won't end well. That's my current dilemma. He likes me, that was confirmed, I like him too, though that is he first time that thought has ever left me head. But the prblem is that my luck as far as relationships go is they end badly it's a mess for everyone involved, friends, family, even the haters. I feel like if we take that step in our relationship it will just be a major waste of time && possibly ruin our friendship forevr. I don't want that. && at this point it's not even like we're the only poeple involved, ou mutual friends are now trying to push a relationship on us. && if it DOES happen && it DOES end badly what am I supposed to do?? He is the closest thing I have to a best friend out here. && I like what we have so why risk it for something that could ruin everything?? I don't think we should. Sometimes I feel like I'm leading him on, we have never actually discussed our 'status' with eachother but our friends love to bring it up to us seperately. They really think I wanna be with him, I usually just avoid the subject, I dot add any coal to the fire, anything they say is from him or something they decided on their own. && I guess if he thinks I'm interested in becoming a couple it's probably because of how I act. See, I'm the type of person who absolutely LOVES being around my friends && whoever is around me at the moment just becomes my favorite person, love who you're with, right?? That's all for now, I'm not done but it's 2:44am && I gotta be up at 6 so I should at least TRY to sleep.