Overworked and Undersexed

Have you ever felt down, like really down?? Like, I dunno, maybe like you could just go to sleep and not wake up... And I don't mean like you could commit suicide, I just mean, you wouldn't care wether or not you woke up in the morning. Well, thats me right now, && I don't mean to sound 'emo' or anything, it's just an off day. The funny part is, most things in my life totally work against this, I'm close to my mom, I have friends that love me, I don't even understand why some of them put up with me because I can be a TOTAL bitch when I want to. But then, there are the things that get me feeling this way, my friend just died, my stepdad isn't shit, I'm in a new place where I barely know anybody, school has me stressed like none other, && I'm constantly being bugged to get a job. Some days i wake up && I'm just like "fuck it, I wanna lie in bed all day brooding && existing && ignoring my issues." However, I am proud of myself for not having a boyfriend, this new independence is great for me, at this point I don't even want a boyfriend, I'm so much better off this way. But then I get in a certain mood && I have to avoid all human contact or risk doing something hoe-ish. But that's all for now, I need to go put forth effort in this day.